Hopelessly, I Loved You

I know this feeling,
I’ve felt this fear,
It’s old, it’s blue,
Yet, still, it feels new

I know this pain
I see in your eyes
You are leaving again
I’m staying behind

“Will you be fine?” you ask,
I think to myself, “Will you?”
Then I say, “Yes,”
And lie unwillingly,
One of us has to I guess,
You can’t help leaving me

I must not cry, “I tell myself.”
Although I want to,
You are the blue in my sky,
Its all grey without you,
But you must leave, though I cant understand why,
“Its not you, its me!” you blabber with teary eyes….
“Enough!”
“Do what you must.”
“I hope you find what you seek,…”
“And I hope it lasts.”

Be on your way,
And heaven be your guide,
Ever so beautiful,
You’ll live in my mind,
Should you ever come back,
I hope you don’t look for me,
It won’t be me you’ll come back to,
I won’t be what you’ll need